February 27th, 2017

It's difficult being the reserved person I am. I do my very best to smile and offer pleasant greetings, but I don't reach out and make small conversation. I firmly believe the less I say, the less ppl will judge me, but that is quite the opposite. I feel other people's judgement. I know they think I am too good to mk friends. They don't inquire about my life bc I don't ask about theirs. I guess they figure I don't care. Friday, Addie sings on stage from 8-8:20. I report to work at 8:15. Class doesn't start till 8:40 by the time announcements are over. I don't want to take the entire morning off for 20 minutes of tardiness. No one's doing any favors for me. I don't feel supported at work, and I think it's bc of my personality. They said I need to take off when I asked for cover. Why wld they try to help someone who keeps to themselves? I feel so torn. I want to be there for my daughter. Singing on stage is really hard for her and she wants me there, but I don't want admin to think I don't care about our early release STAAR review. I have some serious teacher mom guilt. I've missed so much of my daughter's school events already. It's weighing on me heavy. I know they know I'm a good teacher. That is one thing I am not worried about. I know I shouldn't feel guilty about choosing my daughter. I also know this could be easily resolved, but I am left to make a choice. And I hate it.