It’s quiet and I’m all alone for now. Girls are sleeping and Frank is working MLK March. We’ve been in Houston playing in the first stop of the Tour. We went 4-1 all solid teams. Losing to Magic in the semi finals day 2. Our girls hung in there but played sloppy. Cat was NOT on. This was the first time I’ve seen her in a slump. She kept hitting hard but they kept going out. Technique and mental confidence. One sever rattled off 4 points on her and her teammate. They couldn’t work it out. It was hard to watch.
Coach Maggie has me on the bench as her 2nd. Prob to quiet me down from screaming on the sidelines. I respectfully hold back a lot which is stressful BUT I also get to be heard which is cool. It’s exhausting working the games now especially being down ref. I miss snuggling my Addie in a blanket on the sidelines and the inappropriate banter with my friends. My sister is here too this year. Marlowe is playing on the team. We are loving that about 93% of the time. Adding a full blown beautiful teenager to mix makes life challenging, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. How cool is it I get to mini vacay with my bffs!! We took third out of 16. We were ranked 4th, moving on up. Next stop is RR TX Feb 8-10. Maggie just asked if I could coach solo. She’s coaching 12s and 13s and has to be in Dallas. Big debut at the Tour! Cat wasn’t stoked but is trying to be nice. Last night after I told her she was in a loving playful mood so.... I’m taking that as a good sign.
We rushed home for Addie’s club vball practice, Little Exrreme. I was tired, tired of sloppy volleyball... so I vowed to not let that play with the little girls at this practice. I got loud and held them accountable. I love being a part of these beautiful girls’ lives especially my two. I bet my dad is smiling.
Simply the Best by Noah Reid
Yesterday I had a terrible but amazing dream. It felt like I was visiting my past. Catalina was three years old. I knew that she wasn’t real. I knew I was being given a gift to be able to hold her to carry her again. I kept saying, you’re so big now. I can’t carry you like this. I forget how little you were. I miss this so much. and I start to cry so hard I woke up sobbing into my pillow. I’m trying to appreciate this moment but I miss my baby being a baby.
woke up at 4am last night with you on my mind.
If I really put in the effort and make it memorable, then I won’t have to do it so long or often. It really has some benefits to my life. It puts me in a better mood. I burn calories. I can relax after it’s over. It’s not the same like in my youth, but if I have to do it, I might as well be excellent at it. Exercise is important.
loh my gosh life just keeps going. Observation week at work, clothes war over a Christmas outfits. Cat refused to take pics with Santa. heartbreak. I did tell her last year she didn’t have to this year. Darn my word.
Two days before Christmas Frank’s bday on the 23rd Vodka Snapple strw/kiwi, He invited everyone over last minute like at 4pm for a 7pm pizza and pie party bc he just hadn’t decided what he wanted to do. eye roll Good thing I spent the entire day before cleaning like the good wife I am.
Christmas Eve Cucumber Vodka and Lemonade at my sister’s, Two hours before leaving Addie says her head itches a lot... Yup that was fun! I took care of the problem right then and there. (I wonder if my family read this) Our gift to you lol!!!
Christmas day at my childhood BFF Sister in law’s (vodka and apple Snapple), then the highly anticipated Cat’s Queen of the day 12th bday. Breaking all tradition yet again, she didn’t want birthday pancakes and only wanted to spend time with her sleepover friend IVY. It gave me time to put everything Christmas away. Not fast enough. (Ssymbols of grief gone) Door Dash Chick-fil-a at request. After an hour of deliberating, Catalina decided she wanted me to drive her, her friend, and Addie to Urban Air. Anything inside on your day and gladly to be near you. Frank went to the ranch. Cat seemed to be happy I was there to entertain them with my banter. We stopped and shopped real quick for three dressy sweatshirts bc she’s the sporty type. Lubys was her choice for dinner, for Ivy’s never been and we were all amazed at that. Finally, Cat picked a funky cheese cake encased with gram crust on top and bottom to celebrate and sing happy birthday. It was a nice day to have a baby 12 years ago. I am blessed. Life doesn’t stop there.
More driving to practice, The weekend brings Addie’s morning vball tourney. 7:20am on the court. Coach’s mtg 7:30. We tied for first and points pushed us to third. Bummer! Girls had some amazing saves but more spooked ball falls. Not good volleyball. But they are 7-9yrs old playing 11us mere babies.
Two practices yesterday. New Yrs Eve at my sister’s in Bulverde. I’m going peppermint vodka tonight. No sipping just shots. I really just want home to stay in my new robe and pjs. I don’t like driving bk after midnight when I could be sleeping. But I will do it for my girls and my neices and nephews. Tomorrow there’s no sleeping in. It’s Dillard’s 50% off lowest mark down price annual shopping trip! Boots and comforters! A day for me and my money. and continue...