I am grateful for this day because of you
Today was one of those days being a teacher is emotional draining. I do my very best. I try my best to have patience and understanding but at some point you are pushed over the edge. Some students who are like a plague. They infect and destroy till there is nothing left. Till all your efforts are for nothing. They lie and manipulate and spit you out. Tomorrow I will walk in and show resilience and perseverance but tonight I will cry. Tonight I question what I am doing here. What am I doing here.
My dreams are so real that they wake me in tears terrified they might be true. They come from sonewhere. They have a purpose. Are they warnings, foresight of my future. I am never upset in my dreams when it comes to light. I don’t cry. I sit there and watch it unfold. The harsh reality that will tear my world apart that will devastate my girls. Then I wake and I want so bad to know if it is true. I need to know. It feels so real. But there is nothing left to do but wait.
"What was it that you wanted and why didn't you fight for it?
looking for me? You found me. Now what?
Last day of Spring Break. It went by so fast. We had a chilly time in CO. I am grateful for the memories. Cat’s team did way better than expected. We went 5-4. Took 2nd in Silver National division. Counting American teams (lower level) that’s 8th place out of 80 something teams. We played the national champions and the top four ranked teams in the Nation. It was a great experience for them and I know it helped elevate their team if nothing else but in mental strength. After the tourny, we went up the mountain despite the warning of avalanches and undrivable roads. We sled down hills in Fisco Co and shopped in Breckenridge. Addie got sick on the way down. My poor sea level babies. We don’t belong so high up. It wasn’t as cold as I feared until we left. A Historic Cyclone Blizzard hit right after we left. We got the last plane out and made it home to Sunny SA. I am thankful God was on our side.
There’s only room for three in my circle. Me and my girls. Everyone else just disappoints and needs to back up.