”There were three phone calls two years ago. You remember them right? You don’t? That’s even more upsetting?” “You suffocated me by making me breakfast and asking if I had homework and telling me to go to bed at a decent hour” “ So I didn’t call you for a year bc I needed space” “But then I got sick and you weren’t there for me” “If you really loved me, you and mom wld have stayed together” (stepmom sitting in front of me) Trigger: ”Everyone is ignoring me at my brother’s 22nd bday party. In the car you said to me, ‘I really would like to see my daughter back in school’ How dare you say that in that tone!?! when you know my medical condition doesn’t allow me to go this semester” even though I just got back from England with my class last semester.

Getting ready to go bk to Middle School and dealing with unreasonable.

I pray my children find Jesus, so he can show them we only get one life. We must find a way to push through the pain and live in love and gratitude. Every minute we choose anything less is wasted and can never get back. Choose happiness any way you can.

When someone wants to hold on to anger, there’s nothing you can do or say to change that.

Ive spent the last four weeks flipping our new little house, packing our big house, moving 10 years worth of stuff into a house that’s 1000sqft SMALLER, unpacking and organizing our new home just to start unpacking my classroom next week. I’m exhausted. Our builder says it will take six months to build our ranch house. Can’t wait to do it ALL over again!! Not sure where my summer went.

I painted these all myself just ask my carpel tunnel wrists if it’s true. They remind me every day and night.

In my mind life is different. I see and remember what I choose. I know what’s real and what is far from it. I know you do too.

It’s my girls are spending the night at two different cousin houses. I’m left here with the cats. Just like I knew I wld be. I do love the quiet.

I remember hungry starved crazed.
I remember enticing engaging regretting.
I remember soaking engulfing inflamed.
I remember living honestly freely and fully.
I remember chasing pleading promising.
I remember loving then losing.
I remember forgetting.

Repairing, replacing and covering over ugly. Im tired. Two weeks to ready rental till move into. We are getting a showing every other day consistently for our current home. We just need that right family to fall in love with our home. Until then we are house jumping.

Addie started vball camp today. She took home the “passing award!” Cat made 12u National Xtreme team. My girls are awesome even when they are NOT! Cat is going through a hard time. Changing. Sassy. I feel her pushing to see how far she can go just like when she was three years old. I’ve been doing a lot of praying. Only God can help us.

We closed on our little house yesterday. We are fixing it up to live in while the house is being built at the ranch...which can’t get started till our current house is sold. Today we pulled up all carpet. It already smells better. I asked my sister how to get rid of old lady smell. She said I shld check between the walls first. Dang!! Scary.
...aaannddd I am already annoyed as hell with the worst half! It’s sure as hell hard to compromise with me. I want this tile gone but he’s okay with it for now. His compromise leave the popcorn ceiling and replace the tile. Oh no! Popcorn is a must remove. How about replace tile in living areas with wood and leave tile in kitchen. Ok how about you live here and I live at the big house. Deal!!

They’re done. Thank goodness for hot spots and fire stick.

yea baby. Our little girls beat undefeated team in 3!