I’m here. Barely. I need more. I need a reminder. I am tired of this.

Valentines day as a MS teacher is no bueno. The crinkling of hidden candy wrappers, hyped up kids acting foolish. They think it’s a free day bc why who knows. Then we had vball practice, pizza and donuts with team. homework and spelling pretexts. I’m just ready to go to bed and dream of another time.

This weekend went okay but was harder than I expected. The team was not my team. It was not my rotations or formation and I felt like an imposter yelling at the girls. They took it well especially my girl. We ended up taking third. We beat the teams we needed to and lost to the top two teams. Our loss to Alamo stung a bit but our team just wasnt ready for those big hits and challenging serving. Coach Maggie watched the films and wants to move Cat to libero. I’m not sure how I feel about that. I think that’s a position she needs to learn bc she isn’t going to be a hitter for much longer. she will eventually be Ds, setter or libero bc we are short Mexicans. I guess we will see how it goes. I’m going to start making some calls for private clinics. Liberos are after my time, so I have no clue how to help her. You tubes got my back.

Overall I am grateful for the experience. I think I am a very good young athlete coach. I rock Addie’s team teaching fundamentals. The big girls are out of my league. I was really sad I missed my baby take zone championship. Back to back. Next weekend is city playoffs and we have a volleyball tourny at the same time. Yikes. Not sure how that’s going to play out. But I guess it’s a good problem to have. My girls are my life.

what about now?

It was a long weekend. I’m pretty sure I work with kids too much. All day teaching 90 kids, come home to my two then at night coaching 10-12 more. Include the 32 athletes on two vball teams and a basketball team over the weekend. I just want silence some times. I can only find it at 6:30 in the morning before starting it all over again. This is when I think of you.

Friday: Addie has club vball practice 5-6
basketbalk game 730
Sat: 715 vball tourny
2 bkbll game
Sunday: 2 club softball practice
6 vball practice.

It’s quiet and I’m all alone for now. Girls are sleeping and Frank is working MLK March. We’ve been in Houston playing in the first stop of the Tour. We went 4-1 all solid teams. Losing to Magic in the semi finals day 2. Our girls hung in there but played sloppy. Cat was NOT on. This was the first time I’ve seen her in a slump. She kept hitting hard but they kept going out. Technique and mental confidence. One sever rattled off 4 points on her and her teammate. They couldn’t work it out. It was hard to watch.

Coach Maggie has me on the bench as her 2nd. Prob to quiet me down from screaming on the sidelines. I respectfully hold back a lot which is stressful BUT I also get to be heard which is cool. It’s exhausting working the games now especially being down ref. I miss snuggling my Addie in a blanket on the sidelines and the inappropriate banter with my friends. My sister is here too this year. Marlowe is playing on the team. We are loving that about 93% of the time. Adding a full blown beautiful teenager to mix makes life challenging, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. How cool is it I get to mini vacay with my bffs!! We took third out of 16. We were ranked 4th, moving on up. Next stop is RR TX Feb 8-10. Maggie just asked if I could coach solo. She’s coaching 12s and 13s and has to be in Dallas. Big debut at the Tour! Cat wasn’t stoked but is trying to be nice. Last night after I told her she was in a loving playful mood so.... I’m taking that as a good sign.

We rushed home for Addie’s club vball practice, Little Exrreme. I was tired, tired of sloppy volleyball... so I vowed to not let that play with the little girls at this practice. I got loud and held them accountable. I love being a part of these beautiful girls’ lives especially my two. I bet my dad is smiling.