When I told my sister I got the job at the school I wanted, she said I lived a charmed life. Everything I ever wanted I got. I was hurt by this bc I wanted to believe my skills, hard work and education awarded me the position. Is she serious? I didn't say anything to her. I held back bc I knew it was just her way. Yesterday, I looked up statistics about my possible future. I only found percentages of how long I would live past five years after diagnosis. Maybe it was just one bad website, but I stopped searching after that. It depends on what stage it is found. My dad found stage 4 can-cer. My life doesn't feel so charmed now and my thoughts are far from it. I am going to pray now bc it's all in God's hand.