I turn 42 tomorrow. I am happy with the person I am. There’s always room for improvement of this I am certain. I enjoy silence and solitude. My daughters love and respect me. I am better person now than I ever was. I’m not scared or bummed about getting older. I don’t hold on to regret. I look to live in the positive but can’t ignore the pain. I miss my dad and you. My life is already chosen and yet there’s so much I can’t control. I wish there was more time to read and my students appreciated me more. I wish someone could really see all the work I do as a teacher, a mom, a coach at desperately trying to be a good person. I no longer think or plan for my future. I take it one day at a time. I focus on each decision and thought as they come. I try to be cordigal and hold back the sarcastic jokes. I pay attention to people’s reaction of me and care too much for those that shld not matter. I am a work in progress but have come so far. Would you recognize me now? I doubt it. You would seek the old me that lived and loved freely. That girl is gone, and I am all that remains.
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